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It feels as though the Lord has withdrawn His presence ever so slightly this morning. I started feeling it last night right before bed. i recognized it by the lessened affect of the pacification of my flesh. His presence pacifies and silences the flesh from top to bottom and inside-out. I know he does not wish to be far from me. I know he is good and perfect. I know he would only do this to bring something to my attention so that it would be recognized named and removed so he would return and we could have an even greater level of union together. He draws me at all times with chords of love. He guides me with His eye. At this distance from him i feel more exposed to waves of desire and emotion. I will not act on them. When a perverse, unholy, or ungodly desire pops into my head I immediately and quickly turn my minds face away from it like a child turning away from a jump-scare on Halloween. since the lord is right there I also jump into his strong capable arms or i imagine grabbing on...

 The Progression of Abandonment Seraphim This is the progression of abandonment as far as I know it to be. You give up External Desires (Your expectations) for desiring Jesus for Jesus only. You give up desiring Jesus only (your preference) to be filled with his Desires. You cannot be filled with His desires until you are completely emptied of your own. No matter how well intentioned they are. We cannot desire with pure motive. We must be emptied and filled with His desires. You then give up your sight (your perception) for trusting in Him completely. There comes a time and a place in proximity to the Lord that the purity of Him and you and the relationship go beyond what the mind and eyes can comprehend or explain without soiling it with merely human and carnal thoughts. Even the imagination is limited and flawed. There comes a time and a place where you must sit still, be quiet, and cover your eyes. He becomes your sight. He must. It is a total yielding of trust to the Lord. I th...

Surrendering Desire I want to talk about surrendering Desire. In the search for complete union with Jesus Christ, Remember, He started the work He powers the work He completes the work. He decides how deep of a work it is and how long. He gives a measure of faith to each person. So even saying things like "I'm going after him with all my heart" no you're not. he's called you and he's doing a work. your only job your only responsibility is to use your free will to give itself up. that's the one work of the will. Your will didn't start this process. Your will cant keep it going or finish it or speed it up or sustain it. You can slow it down and hinder it though. Don't let your will come in and try to take credit for what's happening. that's creeping pride. that's control. look at the bride in song of songs she finds Jesus and says I will embrace him and never let him go and take him to my moms house. like a kid with a stray animal she wan...

 Union With Jesus Christ I want to talk about union with Jesus Christ. I am still going through this right now so I hope i have the words to talk about it in a coherent way that offers some sort of information about the topic and even invitation to go on a similar journey. I know that this is the desire of Jesus for His bride the church. A beautiful journey began this past month. The Lord brought me to the writings of Jeanne Guyon and it sparked a life changing adventure. The first book I read is called " The Final Steps in Christian Maturity " quite a name, right? The book totally wrecked me. I felt a burning conviction in me. Like a call I couldn't ignore. Guyon talked about turning from the external world to the internal, arriving at yourself, pausing, and then moving past yourself and it is there that you find Christ. This concept was completely new to me and it felt like an epic noble adventure that I just couldn't help but go on. She spoke of total abandonment o...