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I have been ruined for Jesus. I'm so busted for Him. So broken as a normal person. I say that because I see Him in everything. Love reminds me of Him. Every love song is about Him. Every love quote is about Him.  I'm just undone. Everything beautiful reminds me of Him. I'll never glorify another created thing above Him again. He's better. He is better than the things He has made. He is better than the gifts He gives. Yet He gives them anyway. He takes such good care of us. He takes such good care of me. He knows exactly what I need and gives it at the exact time I need it. He spoils me with what I want too. He spoils me with gifts like down to the tiniest detail and beyond even what I could have ever thought of to please myself and He does it in such a way that I cannot glorify the thing or the means or the process or the timing or even the pleasure i get from the gift. He gets all the glory. His ways are better His timing is better. His process is better. There is no o...

 The Closest Secret There is no secret so close as the one between a creation and it's creator.  Only the painting and the painter know the painting beneath the painting; the colors before they were blended.  Only the sculpture and the and the sculptor know the form of the block before it was shaped and every form it took in between. Both of them felt in their bones every calorie of effort spent on the hundreds of chips and carves given and taken.  Only the clay and the potter know the time put in to each other and the shapeless made into shape through intimate, gentle touch. The patience as time and heat cured and layers of protection were carefully added to ensure stability and strength.  Only the Man and Woman, made in the image of God, know in their bones, as their creator knows, their original intent and design. Created as a product of creativity and passion overflowing from the heart of a perfect being. Bones literally made up of that passion and love. He ...

Unhealthy Curiosity Simplicity is Holy. Simplicity is the dispensation of the Kingdom of God from the human perspective. In the journey toward unity with Christ, He does not add to your life, He subtracts. He simplifies. Books are great, sermons are great, spiritual and theological concepts, theories, and explanations are great, but they feed the minds flesh and supply the opportunity for pride to swell up. None of these things can help a person die to themself and give up every desire to Christ. I now understand why Paul, a great theologian, philosopher, and pastor said I wish to know nothing except for Christ and him crucified. Paul here forsook the opportunity to praise the merits of gaining knowledge. More knowledge complicates things. It can make one believe they are in a place that they are not or have not gotten to yet. Just because a concept can be understood that does not mean that maturity in the subject has been perfected. The Lord can use learned vocabulary and curriculum ...

It feels as though the Lord has withdrawn His presence ever so slightly this morning. I started feeling it last night right before bed. i recognized it by the lessened affect of the pacification of my flesh. His presence pacifies and silences the flesh from top to bottom and inside-out. I know he does not wish to be far from me. I know he is good and perfect. I know he would only do this to bring something to my attention so that it would be recognized named and removed so he would return and we could have an even greater level of union together. He draws me at all times with chords of love. He guides me with His eye. At this distance from him i feel more exposed to waves of desire and emotion. I will not act on them. When a perverse, unholy, or ungodly desire pops into my head I immediately and quickly turn my minds face away from it like a child turning away from a jump-scare on Halloween. since the lord is right there I also jump into his strong capable arms or i imagine grabbing on...

 The Progression of Abandonment Seraphim This is the progression of abandonment as far as I know it to be. You give up External Desires (Your expectations) for desiring Jesus for Jesus only. You give up desiring Jesus only (your preference) to be filled with his Desires. You cannot be filled with His desires until you are completely emptied of your own. No matter how well intentioned they are. We cannot desire with pure motive. We must be emptied and filled with His desires. You then give up your sight (your perception) for trusting in Him completely. There comes a time and a place in proximity to the Lord that the purity of Him and you and the relationship go beyond what the mind and eyes can comprehend or explain without soiling it with merely human and carnal thoughts. Even the imagination is limited and flawed. There comes a time and a place where you must sit still, be quiet, and cover your eyes. He becomes your sight. He must. It is a total yielding of trust to the Lord. I th...

Surrendering Desire I want to talk about surrendering Desire. In the search for complete union with Jesus Christ, Remember, He started the work He powers the work He completes the work. He decides how deep of a work it is and how long. He gives a measure of faith to each person. So even saying things like "I'm going after him with all my heart" no you're not. he's called you and he's doing a work. your only job your only responsibility is to use your free will to give itself up. that's the one work of the will. Your will didn't start this process. Your will cant keep it going or finish it or speed it up or sustain it. You can slow it down and hinder it though. Don't let your will come in and try to take credit for what's happening. that's creeping pride. that's control. look at the bride in song of songs she finds Jesus and says I will embrace him and never let him go and take him to my moms house. like a kid with a stray animal she wan...